Today is easter day.. Means a holiday..
After 6pm, outside still poured by water. I feel alone.. Dunno why..
After a while, flash back seems to cross my mind. This morning, yesterday, last week, last month..
I fell like I just go with d flow. Nothing’s wrong with it but I feel is not what usually I am as an individual. I messed up my plans.. I suppose to take my doctoral degree somewhere in the UK, but here I am at front of my house doing nothing. So many things to do outside my personal planning and I just can’t resist them as I always hope can support others. As consequences, multitasking, and my personal planning is the next.. Which I don’t know when to be tackled. Astagfirullah, God..
However, right in front of my eye, so many God’s scenarios acted by my fellows, my friends, my surroundings.
My friend’s Mom passed away on early March, a week after another friend lost her Dad.. My Mom hospitalised, my friend lost his daughter (the baby can only stay 8 month inside her mother’s womb).. Another friend got a new baby girl, my twin nephews ended their breastfed era and many more.. Then I can’t say a word.
Shall I just keep going with the flow?
Happy or sad, you decide!